please forgive me...

salamun alaik'

for those who it may be concern...
please do not act as if u dont know what happen.

dear sahabat....

i am sorry.
i am really2 sorry.
u said that u have forgiven me.
but why did i see that u are not like what u used to be with me.
how u treat me.
by not seeing through my eyes.
no eye contact.
act as if i am not there although i am right besides u..

i can feel it.
why are u staying away from me.
what and where have i done wrong.
i miss your laughter.
i miss your hug.
seriously.
even when i am writing this post, i am bursting into tears.
i am really2 sorry dear.

forgive me if i have really has hurt you in any way.
maybe i did not notice what i have done until u've hurt this way.
but if it is caused by that 'accident'.
i would like to make it clear right here.
it is actually not my fault.
i mean not directly.
u can't blame me on that 'accident'.
coz it happened accidently.
and i dont even know if there is any person 'in there' during that particular time.
and the person who done it is not me!



even Allah forgive those who did not know and who are forgetful..
i. am. really. sorry.
i. miss. u.
i. miss.u..
i. miss. u..

ya allah, please rectify this situation...
open her/his heart to forgive me.
and once again, i am sorry dear...


adakah ukhwah kita serapuh ranting yang dipijak berulang kali oleh para pengembara..
selemau biskut yang dimasuki angin..
sekering air sungai yang kemarau tanpa hujan...
segersang hati tanpa kasih sayang...


apakah yang perlu ku lakukan untuk menambat kembali hatimu ya habibati!~~

Allahuakbar!

Lots of <3 for u, dear ukhti...~~

........

seriously.
i need.
reconstruction.
of strategy planning.
time management.
haywire.

have reflection on myself.
yup.
in all terms.

thats all for now.

Lots of <3 love~~

lonesome?

ya allah....

setiap kata2 akan diuji...

setiap perjuangan kan tiada titik noktahnya...

kau kata kau ikhlas, tp dimana keteserlahannya??

kau kata kau kuat, tp di mana buktinya?

nah! br dijui menjadi sedikit 'terasing' kau sudah melatah?

tersungkur sayu, lemah & kaku?

terasa sendiri, di sudut ceruk nan entah kesekian kali??

menganis sendu, keseorangan, tak siapa tahu?

ya allah, semoga dgn semua ini kau tingkatkan imanku...

kuatkan diriku...

pertingkatkan amalanku..

semoga aku tidak menjadi kaku, lemah & lesu...

terbaring tidak terpaku...

dalam sendu yang terlalu bisu...

mengaharap redha Yang Satu...

ingatla diri, tika kau sunyi, sendiri, sepi nan merintih sayu...

Hanya Dia pengubat sendu & rayumu~....

Allahuakbar...

Tetapi hati berkata, 

"Aku Manusia biasa, perlukan teman, perlukan taulan....,

No Man lives on an Island...,

Seorang Muslim itu cerminan bagi Muslim yg lainnya...,

I need someone to lean on!......."

Wahai hati, ingatlah bahawa tiada apa yang sempurna....

Nobody's perfect....

tika kau rasa sangat berat diuji...

kembalilah ke tikar sejadah nan suci...

menghampar segunug harapan ke Ilahi..

pencipta segenap seisi bumi....

mahupun lautan dan Langit Pertiwi....

memohon sekelumit belas...

semoga ku redha dengan suratan Ilahi...

semoga ku di beri jalan keluar dari kekusutan ini...

ku mohon agar dapat melihat Hikmah yang tersurat di balik yang tersirat...

yang tika ini mata hati masih tertutup rapat...

kerana hati belum lagi sampai ke tahap makrifat..

mengenal pencipta sekalian Umat!

wallahua'alam..

pujuk lah hatimu..
la tahzan~
insyaallah... kan ada hikmahnya...

P/s: peringatan buat diri sendiri & insan2 bergelar manusia yg cuba meraih redhaNya..

~Lots Of Love~~

no more~~

salamun alaik..
dear blog,


erm...br pas ujian INSAK..on Saturday, 9 am...
135 questions with duration of 30 minutes...

ada satu soalan ni berbunyi (lebih kurg la..)
"jika anda menghadapi masalah, berdasarkan teori enam topi Edward De Bono, topi manakah yg akan anda pilih?
A-Topi Hijau
B-Topi Kuning

since i'm really blur and doesn't know what this theory is all about, instead of asking people around me, I google it as soon as I reach home..
copying directly from : http://zulkneo.multiply.com/journal/item/16


                       *Topi kuning                 

Topi kuning digunakan untuk mencari nilai-nilai positif. Ia juga digunakan untuk berfikir secara logikal daripada perspektif yang positif dan konstruktif. Gaya pemikiran menggunakan topi kuning amat penting kerana ia dapat menggalakkan kita untuk mencari nilai-nilai positif sesuatu idea termasuk idea yang pada mulanya kelihatan tidak begitu menarik.

*Topi hijau                    

Topi hijau pula mewakili kreativiti. Ia melambangkan tenaga pemikiran yang melihat sesuatu perkara dari perspektif yang baru dan juga mengeluarkan idea-idea yang kreatif dalam kaedah penyelesaian masalah.Topi hijau membantu kita untuk bergerak kehadapan dengan menjanakan idea-idea alternatif yang lebih baik berbanding idea asal. Ia juga digunakan untuk menyelesaikan atau memperbaiki masalah yang dilihat melalui topi hitam.

ok, what is the significance of asking this question regarding of whether this particular person is eligible to get KPM's scholarship? erm....apa ye hubungannya..

lets put on our thinking cap..thinking...and keep thinking...

seriously i couldn't make up my mind on this....i'll let u tell me the reason.. ;)

as for my own answer? it's something i would never tell... (quoting this phrase from someone)... =p

 ok, the focus of tonight's post is actually on other matters..personally, i do hate sceptical people..ya, the word is HATE..... what is the meaning of hatred?
lets refer to Google translate.. (as it is common for students to use it nowadays even it doesn't have the credibility needed to provide an official definition of something...kn? yup, u're right, including me!)
SYNONYM OF HATE
~ benci
~كراهية
~la haine
~ненависть
~증오
~etc...

it's not nice to hate somebody....even our prophet Muahammad urge his ummah to be in unity, and loves for our brotherhood....

i'm just a normal human being..
i'm not perfect..
there are certain things a dont know..
sometimes i'm in sorrow..
solemn and hidden in a corner...
i dont want it, no more...
save me, take me.... 
out of this misery..
guide me, drive me to Your Destiny...
in eternal calamity and tranquility... 
towards Mardhatillah...

pray for me..
not blame me...
and curse me for thing i dont know...
neglect me on things i skip..
even spat me on deed i miss...
abandon me when i'm in need...
ignore me when i need someone to lean on...

erm..a poem? nah, just a simple flow of ideas..

ok think this is the longest post i've written so far.. ;)

~Lots of Love~ 

Salamun alaik...
=)
ukhwah itu kn manis...kn2??
wallahua'lam..
ni hanyalah coretan dr soerg insan kerdil...

apabila 2 org insan itu bertemu n berpisah kerana Allah, aura yg diterima oleh kedua2 insan td terasa hebat...
contohnya dlm novel sinergi.....
walaupun 2 org insan berlainan darah keturunan, berbeza perwatakan dan minat....ttp segala ujian dan halangan yg datang dpt diatasi....
mcmana ujian seberat gunung mahupun sedalam lautan boleh ditepis ibarat bayu yg dtg menyapa?
ok, here comes the secret...
& what is it?
it's IMAN.....
indahnya jika diriku jua berjaya m'capai tahap persahabatan yg sebegitu rupa...
tidakkah kamu berasa begitu jua?? =P

mengapa begitu ek?

cuba kita refer pd ayat yg Allah da rakamkn dlm Al-Quran...

dl rasa...erm mcmane nk berhubungan kerana Allah?
bkn ke semua benda yg kita buat ni tertakluk dlm lingkungan Iradahnya?
ye, mmg la btul...
tp kn. lebih indah kiranya hubungan yg dijalinkn adalah demi m'capai mardhatillah....
apa jenis2 perkara tersebut ye?

erm,,,,lemme think for a while...
i think all of us can come with an answer....

so answer this question, and hopefully kita semua akan berukhwah keranaNYa...
not just based on looks, wealth.....or even because of popularity that someone possess....

p/s: boleh la bce novel "sinergi" by Hilal Asyraf... (thanks hajar)
p/s: ingtan buat diriku jua... ;(

that's all for now..

Lots Of Love~~~~